l.i.l.a.l.a.b.e.t.h

2012-03-05T08:32:00.001-08:00

we layed down in the shade of his appletree

he took my hand and said

" i think you're beautiful and i love you,

but you're beautiful in the way a forest fire is beautiful "

2012-03-03T10:51:00.002-08:00

alienation becomes an acid that eats away at what is left of me
i have one foot in the fairy tale and the other in the abyss

2012-02-10T06:59:00.000-08:00

can't you see i'm sick?

like my heart is quick,

not for places but for moments,

their like an old book i read

and in my head it's always like in the movies

he used to wake me with mayer

and we put it on repeat four times

i remember a trail of ruby red and diamond white

but i'm still buzzing like neon

2012-02-01T15:44:00.000-08:00

How Come You Never Go There (Beck Remix)

2012-02-01T15:41:00.002-08:00

2012-01-17T11:13:00.000-08:00

i am living in a magazine
the devil wears prada me out

2012-01-07T11:07:00.000-08:00

CLOSE EYES TO EXIT.

2011-12-12T15:21:00.001-08:00

lunchbreak 12/12/11
got hungry and made you icecream
got poor and asked for a raise
check.
cheque.

2011-12-09T12:36:00.001-08:00

crawlin'... not so much ballin'

2011-12-05T12:46:00.000-08:00

we turn white trash during weekends
stuff the freezer with wine and belgian meat
provide our puffpuffpass and go to christmasfairs
on weekdays we work, die and babysit puppies.

2011-10-30T13:20:00.000-07:00

- you got twenty minutes to deliver the moodboards.
and all i wanted to do was print out a splash page smileyface
UPSIDE DOWN, fullscreen and offcourse well-aligned
to file under the category
"when you get what you want,
but it's not what you need"
-you're welcome.

2011-10-19T12:30:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like i am a black bird
while all you need is a canary.

2011-10-16T05:29:00.000-07:00

and we sat there, an hour in the dark,
on the cold floor in the antidote hallway,
waiting for the locksmithguys
because his key broke inside the doorlock
the stress grabbed my throath
no time for a little joke
pull up my knees, and wait
to kick in the door,
grab the milliondollarlabels
stuffed in seven suitcases
whistle for a cab and face the crew
"bienvenue dans la cirque de la mode"
he smiled for the first time?
go on, breathe.

2011-10-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

"Which road do I take?"
"Where do you want to go?"
"I don't know,"
"Then," he said, "it doesn't matter."

.

2011-09-25T13:09:00.000-07:00

while everyone else was out for lobster
i headed back home to heat up the oven.
being poor puts us on the croque monsieurs diet.

2011-09-21T10:41:00.000-07:00

cross your fingers, sing your prayer,
this friday i'm might start a new love affair
Antidote Magazine, entretien a 10h00

2011-09-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

i'm hanging posters on the wall.
while i'm into heavy music again.
sending thousand million hundred
emals a day, just to make payday

2011-09-20T02:45:00.000-07:00

hotel de ville
i'm running on cargo for a while
we'll be running together very soon!

2011-09-14T02:07:00.000-07:00

I'm fading in a grey zone,
across weirdish wild space,
lost in a "i'm feeling useless" place.
Seuss called it The Waiting Place
I'm tired of waiting and staying.
So I go out and search for bright places
where boom bands are playing.

2011-09-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

my head full of brain
my shoes full of feet
i'm living in a happy new street
(Except when I don’t.
 Because, sometimes, I won’t)
bienvenue dans notre quartier.
Canal Saint Martin.

2011-09-06T09:49:00.001-07:00

C O R D I A L E M E N T

2011-09-06T07:47:00.000-07:00

2011-09-04T11:34:00.000-07:00

the daddy's girl goodbye and a you'll be fine kiss
summer started scince i moved here
put mintleaves and lemon in our tapwater
while the boy dances in the meatpacking district
we shake the sweat and twirl
at the other side of the world
now i live in different moments
where there's time to beathe and i'll never be lonely
walk the graveyards while singing edith and jim
while at night i rest my bones and wait for him.

2011-08-25T05:59:00.001-07:00

he treated me like summer,
barely appreciated when i was here,
but the second i was gone,
all he did was missing me.

2011-08-21T03:18:00.000-07:00

i can't forget, i can't cope,
mother nature's insanity.
i almost bruised his hand
i can't forget, i can't understand.

2011-08-12T19:41:00.000-07:00

and then i went to the gym for him.

2011-08-07T10:17:00.000-07:00

E.Jeanne. et L. Antoine.

2011-08-07T10:08:00.000-07:00

"so Cosmo says we're fat, we ain't down with that"
O's beachhouse july 2011

2011-08-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

sometimes I seem farther off than Australia
sometimes I feel so so wrong, with my own face on
but always right like a well done sum,
you and me, even after the fight.

2011-07-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

and all of a sudden there was joy and a criquetteam
and i got scared to leave.

2011-07-08T15:52:00.000-07:00

together.

2011-07-08T15:39:00.000-07:00

stormy thuesday balcony bounding
with Wolfie, Jelena, Jan & Athos.
we were a band called
Ali Harvard Lover and The Nose Bleeds
the after 'O effect, more to come,
sneakpeak here's the movie

2011-06-29T16:10:00.000-07:00

a little to do list:
- move to Paris, find a job
- find my body double
- see a live volcano eruption
- go fishing in canada with you
- build an iglo, also in canada probarly
- and sleep in it too
- make a scene at a fancy restaurant for no reason and run away
- take tap dance or waterballet classes
- quit smoking
- be really quiet for a long time
- release five racoons at a zoo
- be weightless, like in space not anorexic
- earn or win a ridiculous amount of money and buy you a designer suit
- close all windows and doors, open the taps and flud the place
- go back to Vegas and make a one-time appearance in the crazy horse show
- design an engagement ring with a red triangle ruby.
- go to NYC and tell the cabdriver to follow that car!
- yell at him to go faster
- publish another book, besides a semi-erotic novel
- be caught in a apocalyptic storm and live to tell.
- love the hell out of you for a really really long time.

-

2011-06-29T15:17:00.000-07:00

Scott Bourne
made my pack
the dusty typewriter
for Paris.
skatebordpoetlover
i miss you
i need you

2011-06-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

O playday at Villa Malvilla
André Wolff puts us to sleep
after discoballbowling at the beach.

2011-06-21T01:28:00.001-07:00

2011-06-19T17:02:00.000-07:00

i can't be still, you thrill me still.

2011-06-19T16:39:00.000-07:00

this and that night i wore that blue jumpsuit, between the bars.

2011-06-17T06:40:00.000-07:00

i sat there in the hospital
and i just died
london calling to save me
fingers crossed.

2011-06-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

i took the bus to the rehearsalplace
i'm so so poor, young and angry
and it was just what i needed:
some puffpuffpass,
loud death house gitars and old lovers
take me away, i do not feel okay.

2011-06-12T17:28:00.000-07:00

take your time,
count my freckles
come back home and
lets play house.

2011-06-08T15:11:00.000-07:00

2011-06-07T15:38:00.000-07:00

she takes care of my laundry
i take care of her invites.
<3

2011-06-07T03:18:00.000-07:00

i like him better then Terry
he likes spraypaint, skateboards,
filthy dogs and naked skinny bitches
oh my viktor vauthier.

2011-06-06T15:11:00.000-07:00

accidental flashback
august 11 2009
-i'm drunk
and i love you
yes, even whem i'm sober...
- i feel weird
it's like we're dead
- because you almost killed me
...let's talk, feet to feet.
and why did you dissapear from all my fanpages?
and don't start yelling
- and don't try to win me over with posters, fonts and vectorfiles
- i thought we were a happy book?
- it's not the end in the book, just some blanc pages i guess

2011-06-06T09:24:00.001-07:00

2011-05-30T14:34:00.000-07:00

arizona desert
that means no decent lavatory

2011-05-30T14:18:00.000-07:00

I CAN'T SLEEP ALONE
YEAH YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

2011-05-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

2011-05-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

we found an appartment
and he stayed so quite.

2011-05-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

galgje.

2011-05-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

got through the rough paths
with a hat to match
we fight and make up
get married on a camel's back
athos burez hooray
heartmending today

2011-05-03T16:01:00.000-07:00

read it from the top
ctrl+s
ctrl+q
put it in a box

2011-05-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

auwch

2011-04-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

Kaleidoscoopische Oogs
a future threesome plus one collection

2011-04-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

support the troops:
Karolien van de Gaer
a sweet cup of tea

2011-04-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

Toykyo Office
fly new tables and not so happy birds
little boxes on the hillside
silkscreensessions in the outside
afternoon picnics in the park
whine and french fries till it's dark.

2011-04-14T14:35:00.001-07:00

he drew the line saw me back and made me smile
"hey child what's happened to your appetite?"

2011-04-01T17:10:00.000-07:00

it's official, i skipped NY to live with the boy in Paris
he'll design shoes, i'll design graphic
starting in september
a lovestory, the serious chapter
ubersiked!

2011-04-01T01:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday Bob Gill told me and the graphic desingers
it's a good thing we don't know where we're going,
embrace this uncertainty of not knowing what's ahead,
or else ya'll should have studied for doctors and laywers,
he also told us to never use our real name if we'd ever do a porn.
another hero.

2011-03-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

i'm packing out the acrylics once again
i got a two giant wooden canvases as a present
and two days in a hallway to make it work
because it always looks nicer in theory
and brighter in my own head
but mostly too expensive to put it in practice
a sweater sweatshop in otto's attic

2011-03-27T04:55:00.000-07:00

she rolles up sleaves in a skull t-shirt
hands me out her stella and fly
prettiest girl in town on film.

2011-03-25T11:16:00.001-07:00

i'm on tight schedules
we work hard
and play harder

2011-03-15T17:31:00.001-07:00

i'll never get anthing better then this
and everyone knows i'm trouble
because i read it in a big book
and now i'm giving you the looklook
just remember how we shookshook
and all the things we tooktook

2011-03-13T18:17:00.000-07:00

my PP right before i met him
when my hair was red,
my head was messy,
my heart carelessly vacant
and my body slutty

2011-03-10T18:36:00.000-08:00

2011-03-10T18:34:00.000-08:00

he used to be my romeo

2011-03-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

WE TAKE A WRONG TURN
WE CRASH AND BURN...

2011-03-03T05:15:00.000-08:00

it's memorable
"so when our musicblog hits a thousand views a day
i would like to remind you and say
remember that one night after my birthday
we had that ridiculous fight
about mezze and french fries
and we drove off to bruxelles
almost in mute-mode
to finally make peace
and hold hands at the Efterklang gig
where that guy looked at me and smiled
but you didn't see it
because you listened with your eyes closed
and afterwards we rode our bikes home,
took seperate elevators and then
took off our clothes and danced
to the entire playlist
and i said we would be the best musicvideo"

2011-03-03T04:49:00.000-08:00

after my 80 pages prometheus bound publication
i've been on a cold harsh hold
i need a new flow and a crew to roll
part II of the internship
hanging with the good guys
Toykyo
studio and production
starting the 1st of April
No Joke.

2011-03-01T03:40:00.000-08:00

the dreams we dream together we call reality.
he's all i need

2011-03-01T03:02:00.000-08:00

i am twentyfour
and i'm under a shower of shitload
climax / very anticlimax
i blew out the candles in my hallway
but this is not what i wished for
i am playing cluedo for days now
one of my friends stole my fucking money
it hit me hard
but Karma's a bitch
and they will eventually know that

2011-02-24T16:00:00.000-08:00

saturday afternoon nap
playlist for two
staring at the ceiling

2011-02-19T14:36:00.000-08:00

he turned to me and answered 'Baby, trust me'

2011-02-19T09:21:00.000-08:00

i want neo-soul, this hip-hop is old
i could do with some rock'n'roll
i thought you told me i was gold
i need a whole lot of something to fold
i need Cody Chesnutt
to tell me: look here, calm down
I'm gonna hold your hand.

2011-02-16T05:20:00.000-08:00

your preparation application little terrorisation
perfect explination for another trip to
the paris nord station

2011-02-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

bring back the houseparties
we'll devide the pie in fifty
toast to that
cut the cake

2011-02-12T15:57:00.000-08:00

i prefer apples and oranges
together in bed with you

2011-02-12T15:30:00.000-08:00

the first sleepover at his house
we weren't even allowed to share a bed
so he gave me his and slept in his brothers room
and when his parents woke up they'd find us
wrapped up sharing a tiny single matrass
in the middle of their hallwayfloor
seventeen was seven years ago
damn

2011-02-08T19:57:00.000-08:00

up all night got demons to fight

2011-02-08T19:28:00.000-08:00

found back my old notebooks
totally sworn to fun and loyal to none

2011-02-08T19:14:00.000-08:00

we sip oldschool limonade in the back after phoney pony class

2011-02-08T18:12:00.000-08:00

raised with a miseducation scince 1998
worth a thousand beyonce's
take notes rihanna's

2011-02-07T03:44:00.000-08:00

filthy dogs makes me smile when skies are grey

i know what i want
an art service
in nyc
please
oh please

2011-02-07T03:18:00.000-08:00

1/4 from your roy andersson collection on sunday
reminds me of my hometowns summerfields
and the dust the boys used to kick

2011-02-04T02:51:00.000-08:00

baby it's still cold outside
let's stay in and watch a movie
make some coffee
and read me a story
from some soft-erotic novel

.

2011-02-04T02:39:00.000-08:00

i see it all
i see you all
i hang my poster on the wall

2011-02-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

just to be clear, when he caught you cheating
you deserve to get thrown sandwiches to your head

2011-02-01T06:29:00.000-08:00

my grandmother asked me
what i wanted for my birthday
i told her i fell head over heels
with the beige kitsuné parka
she said she'd buy me some flowers
but instead she signed me up for
private horseback riding lessons
siked!

2011-01-31T09:14:00.000-08:00

j'en suis sûre
j'ai aucune idée

2011-01-30T07:19:00.001-08:00

bring me back these colors please

2011-01-29T09:11:00.000-08:00

- You know those days when you get the mean reds?
- The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
- No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of.
Do you ever get that feeling?
I feel like a Holy Golightly in a different city.
but did I tell you how divinely and utterly happy I am?

2011-01-22T02:58:00.001-08:00

paris escape part III

2011-01-22T02:42:00.000-08:00

2011-01-20T13:52:00.000-08:00

and yes it could get dark
but i don't mind because
i'm so so sure
there will be
fucking fireworks

2011-01-20T13:45:00.000-08:00

i always ruin my own surprises, damn it...

2011-01-17T09:10:00.000-08:00

2011-01-15T15:52:00.000-08:00

repeat after me
i am free
i changed the plan
run away with me

2011-01-15T15:24:00.000-08:00

should i
spend my time on being free?
take that jump into the void?
on a flight to NYC?
will you come and find me?
like the time you were lost
and i found you?

2011-01-14T17:19:00.000-08:00

i love you in a hotel motel holiday inn
i'm good to go, packed my bag for sure

l.i.l.a.l.a.b.e.t.h

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